Thankful Thought # 3

Today i am so thankful for a home, a roof over my head i can call mine, and all the amenties that come with that! like electricity, mickey mouse clubhouse (for jamisons sake!), running water, heat, and ac in the summer!

i am so blessed to be able to call something mine and i can do whatever i want to it! if we want to paint the walls we can and if we want to change the layout we can and everything we want we can! i am so blessed we arent rent and that our house payment is less then what it was renting!!!

i am so happy to have a husband that gives his time amd energy everyday to give me and jamison this home and amenties!

so that is my thankful today!

Thankful thought 1 & 2

First off i woulf like to thank everyone who has been such a crutch to me lately, my husband who is amazing and listens and tries to make everything that is wrong better! he is my life and i would be nothing without him! and all my friends and family that have been so supportive in my recent heartache and low times, it is amazing how true loved and blessed i feel with the smallest and kindest things that mean everything so thank you!!

i cant believe it is already november!!!! holy freaking crap!!! my boy turns 18 months this month and is now able to go into nursery and i think i am having a harder time then he is!! i get teary just thinking about it! i wish i could freeze time and just have him stay little! but he is amazing and this boy always brings a smile to my face!!!

So thankful number 1 of course is my family! i have the best husband and we have been so spoiled with our son! he is so so funny! we had josh's mom with us these past couple days and he just kept cracking all of us up!! we went to dinner one night and he was sitting next to grandma in the booth and interlocked his fingers and put his hands on teh table and sighed hahahaha liek hello i am ready for dinner! hahaha and he chats like crazy it is all he wants to do! he gives the best kisses too and he LOVES to snuggle! a boy after my own heart!!! and josh is my everything! i couldnt have asked for a better companion in this world! he is perfect for me! he knows when something is up and he knows how to spoil me! lol he is building me my craft room downstairs as we speak! spoiled much??? i think so!!!

Number 2 thankful is i am so thankful for my dad. he is an inspiration to me! he raise 3 kids on his own and i dont know how he is still sane! he has managed to become one of my best friendds and we talk all the time! the type of relationship i would have with a mom and he feels it perfectly! and he is AMAZING with my little jamison! he loves himt o death and has made more special trips out to see us now that he is here then ever!!! i love to see him with my baby cuz it is a sweet reminder of my childhood and i love it!


so those are my thankfuls! and i will continue through the month of november! thanks again to everyone who has thought of me and my family lately or said a small prayer for us they are truely felt and i am beginning to understand and be ok with what has happened and i am looking forward to what will be!

kind of having a hard day.....

i want to start off by saying i am truely blessed to have such an amazing husband who loves me despite all my flaws! and i have a AMAZING little boy who loves to call me mom and give me kisses and loves to cuddle! we have been so spoiled with him!!!

and i would also like to say that i amd so blessed to have an amazing in law family!!! my mother in law who i love to call mom because that is what she is to me and she is so sweet and caring and knows just what to say and when i need a dt pepsi! lol and the rest of josh's family is so loving and i am truely thankful to be so excepted.

now i have been having a bad day today and i need to let out my thoughts or i am going to go into a deep hole and not come out for a while and for the sanity of my husband and my son i would rather not.

i dont know if everyone knows but josh and i were pregnant, we lost it in fact we lost two seperate pregnancies within a 6 month span, the first on as in may and we lost it at 10 weeks, it was horrible i was so depressed and nothing seemed to make it better i would blame myself and say i over did everything and caused it. the miscarriage was like giving birth all over again!!! i have never felt such pain!!!

the second loss was in august at 5 weeks, this was sadly was easier emotionally because i had already done this before but it still didnt make it any better.

i thought once again what is wrong with me??? why cant i keep the baby? and then i realized that the baby isnt really mine, the baby is the lords and it is kind of on loan while down here so that it can learn and be tested to return back to him.
yes i believe our kids are ours but i believe that the lord gives them to us to watch over so the way i got through this last one is i thought maybe the baby just needed a heartbeat and that was all.

so i was trying to feel upbeat a bit about it. but the reason why i am posting is not to get all this sympathy it is because of late i have many people i know that are getting pregnant and having babies and healthly pregnancies, and i for some reason am having such a hard time with it. i am so happy for them and i couldnt be happier for them and their families! but i seem to have a little envy and question why not me? i have been wanting jamison's sibbling for a while now and so why am i not having healthy pregnancies and everything?

i know because they are having babies isnt why i am not. i know that their bliss has nothing to do with my agony but i still cant help but feel a twinge every time i see someone i know getting pregnant and my wishing desperately that it was me.

well anyways i dont think anyone really reads this it is more for my release i guess but for those people who suffered through this post thanks for listening!

September in a nutshell!

So september came and went faster then i thought it could!! we had so much going on and had a blast every minute of it!

So first things first, where the heck did my baby go? i have a little boy now a toddler he doesnt have baby chunk anymore he is like a little man it is sad!

ok onward! So we decided on monday that it was time to take jamison to Chuck E Cheeses for the first time! and he had a blast!! he was running around playing with every game and it is finally a place where i can let him do that!!! and they have this cool stamp and you can only see under ultraviolet lights and so all three of use have the same stamp and to leave we have to show the door person the stamps it is a nice reminder that not just any creep can come in and take your baby!

Next we found a rocking jumping horse at a garage sale for 3 dollars and jamison just loves it!!! he rides it like crazy!! everytime he gets playng he runs straight for the horse! lol

next we went on our first family vacation! we went to the grand canyon and then down to lake havasu to visit my aunt judy!!! We went camping for the first time as we headed down to the grand canyon and it was so fun! and it was beautiful to have the canyons in the background! the grand canyon was breathtaking and poor jamison was asleep for all of it!!! lol but he did wake up to get a picture in front of the grand canyon sign!! and then we headed down to lake havasu to hang out with my aunt judy who hasnt seen jamison is about a year! so as we drove into lake havasu it went from 83 degrees to 112!!!! i couldnt believe it and told josh to grab a picture of it! and it was HOT HOT HOT the whoel time we were there! so what do you do when it is hot? we went to the lake of course!!! and we played on sea doos for two days straight! oh my gosh they were so fun!! josh and i were jumping them on wakes and we were seeing how fast we could go and i got mine up to 62 mph it is so fun you feel liek you are flying across the water not even touching it!!!

Jamison had so much fun on the shore! we brought him sand toys and he played like crazy and was running in and out of the water! luckily judy loves jamison and would watch him while we went playing on the sea doos! sadly i forgot my camera so i dont have pictures of being at the lake!

We also went to this old mining town call oatman and it is in the middle of BFE but it is a cool little town they have burrows running around the town free and they will come right up to you and everything! we have a bunch of pictures of them with jamison they loved him! probably cuz he smelled like food! lol they even tried to eat jamisons cowboy hat! lol

we had lunch in oatman at this restaurant that had dollar bills EVERYWHERE!!! they were on the ceiling and they were all over the walls! you signed your dollar bill and would hang it on the wall! it was so cool! but the service was HORRIBLE! but that is ok it was so fun!

sadly we had to come home but before we left we went to the london bridge, the actually had the london bridge disassembled and each brick had a number on them and the reassembled it here in lake havasu so we went down to see it and take a picture at the fountain.

on the way home we stopped for a night in vegas and we stayed t circus circus so jamison could play some arcade games and also win prizes so that was fun! nd josh won us money to pay for our dinner so that was great too! he is a smart black jack player!

so that is about it for september! i cant believe it is already october! and in like 6 weeks we get to go home to portland and see my dad!!! i cant wait!!!

August Happenings

So we have had a lot of fun this august in our home! we have had so much fun playing around the house and just being a family!

Jamison is a character!!! he has so much spunk and loves to be busy!! i can never get this boyt o calm down unless it is time to go to sleep and he LOVES to sleep!!

Jamison has finally graduated to his toddler bed and he loves it!!! he gets to come into our room in the morning and wake us up and it is truely the best way to be woken up in the morning!

He also wants to help out around the house LOT liek he loves the mop it is the best thing in the world to him! he would rather play with the mop then any of his toys! lol it is so cute though!

and he wants to be a big boy and sit in his big boy chair and i think it is so cute when i say you want to go bye bye he goes and gets into his chair for me to put on his shoes! he is getting so smart!!!

this month has been eventful! jamison had a double ear infection that we had no idea about until he had a 104.5 fever and we went to ER and they told us about it! he didnt tug on his ears or anything he was so good i cant believe how tough our little guy is!!!

we went into Cal Ranch near our home and jamison had a BLAST!!! he loved all the tractor toys and the riding horse! i wish we could have bought the horse for him but it was way way too much money! at the end of the post is the video of him playing on the horse! it is hilarious!

Jamison is a talker now too!!! he loves to say yes and no and oooooooh like when he wants what you are eating he will come up to you and say ooooooooooh till you give him some and then he says mmmmmmmh lol it is so cute! and he jabbers like carzy i dont understand a single word but he will mak esure you are pay attention to what he is saying!

my dad and sister are coming into town this weekend and then the next weekend i am going to brigham city to sell my bows in the peach days festival!! so i have been working around the clock to make a bunch of bows! and then 2 weeks later we are going to the grand canyon and lake havasu to visit my aunt judy who hasnt seen jamison in a year!!! so we are so excited!
so september is going to be CRAZY busy but that is how we like it!!

October will be more low key and then traveling again for the holidays! so it is exciting and fun to get the holidays off and going!!!

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