Prayers Are Answered!!!!

After 2 seperate miscarriages one in May and one is August, and after 2 months of trying to figure out what is wrong with me we finally figured it out!!

aparrently it happens to many women! i have low progesterone which happened after the first miscarriage! it makes it so my body doesnt produce enough to sustane both me and the baby so my body aborts the baby. so now we know what is wrong!!!!

so a few months ago i started the regiment of progesterone cream for 2 weeks a cycle after ovulation since that is when your body needs the progesterone! plus if you re constantly n progesterone it will actually make it so you wont ovulate, that is what happens in pregnancy, so i have been doing progesterone for a little while now!

and Our Family Is GROWING BY TWO ADDORABLE LITTLE FEET!!!!!! we are finally pregnant!!!! it only took 2 miscarriages and 3 months later but we are excited for this! it has been a long time coming! i have definetely become closer to my heavenly father in this process by trusting him and knowing that he is all knowing and there were reasons for our losses! and i have become closer to my dear husband! in these losses he has been my rock when i am uncontrolable and he is there to pick me up with every other announced pregnancy! he has been there to tell me it is ok and that we have a very special little one waiting to join our family!

So my prayers have been answered! we had an early ultrasound to check ont he pregnancy and make sure it was progressing normal, and to much relieve it is! we got to see the little peanut and got to hear its beautiful heartbeat! let me tell you that sound is the best thing in the world when you are praying so hard for it!!

So our little one will be joining our family at the end of August! between the 27th to Sept 1st. the reason why we dont have an exact date is because the doctor we see says if our measurements are within a week of the projected due date they keep that due date even if it is off by a few days, so our projected due date is the 27th but we ovulated late by 4 days so really it would be the 31st but since it is within that week the due date of the 27th stays!

I am beyond relieved to know that there is a little one there and everything is going well! i am actually nauseous with this pregnancy which is something i am not use to!!! with Jamison i wasnt nauseous AT ALL!!! and this one last night knocked me down to laying ont he couch for hours because i was so sick, like i wanted to throw up but my body wouldnt! youknow when you feel like all i need to do is throw up and i will feel better? i felt that way and couldnt do anything about it!

so we are 7 weeks strong and so beyond excited! Jamison says baby all the time and points to my belly! we ask himt o give the baby kisses and he will kiss my tummy! i am so happy we are having them further apart then i originally wanted, just because he understands more and he is going to help me! not to mention i will only have one baby in diapers instead of two!! that in and of itself i s going to be a money saver!!! and plus i get to teach him about babies and he actually retains it! he is excited when he saw the baby on the screen he pointed and smiled he knows whats going on so i am so happy we get to have the baby later then earlier!

so there is our happy news cant wait and so happy!!! thanks for listening!!


this is its heartbeat at 131 bpm! healthy and strong!

this is our peanut at 7 weeks and 2 days!

Christmas 2010

This year has flown by! i swear i blinked and the year is over!!! it has been a up and down year in this household but for the most part we have had so much fun together adn enjoying each other and watching jamison turn from a baby to a little boy!!!

December 14th was josh and i's 3 year anniversary! we gave each other gifts and then we went to eat at the roof restaurant in downtown, it was goregous we were right next to the window and so we got to see the temple up close and personal with the christmas lights it is beautiful and it reminded me of hwo special it is for me to be sealed to my husband and my son forever and that we get to be together even have this mortal world it is such an undescribeable feeling and i loved the whole evening with my husband and son. we were going to get a babysitter for jamison but then we decided not to because if we are celebrating our wedding and our lives this far it wouldnt have been the same without him! maybe when there are more kids and everything we will get a babysitter but we want to enjoy all the time with just jamison for as long as we can!!!

Christmas was great this year, we went up to rexburg to see josh's family, we went to the christmas eve party adn grandma and grandpas house and had a good time eating and laughing and watching jamison interact with jake and terressa's kids he is so funny and he LOVES to dance!!! hahahaha

then christmas day we went over to grandmothers and had an AMAZING meal cooked by grandmother and it was to nice to sit and relax and chat with family and enjoy each other and jamison loves grandmother he would show her toys and when it was time to leave he gave her two loves before we could go.

So we didnt bring up presents to open there because we didnt want to haul it all there and back so we opened all of our gifts when we got home and jamison was so excited to rip the wrapping paper! it is so awesome to have him interact more this christmas!!! so he loved it! he got spoiled with cowboy boots from his aunt, a song playing doodle machine from nana carole, puzzles and money, as well as a bed set and clothes and much more!!! we all got spoiled! it was awesome!!

so now we get ready for the new year! we are getting to know friends and neighbors int he ward more and i have to say i love the ladies i am getting to know there are a handful that warm my heart and i want to do as much as i can to help them or just hang out.

other then that nothing to exciting is going on we love our life and our family and are excited for what the new year has to bring and offer and luckily we get to go through everything together!

merry christmas and a happy new year! i will write to you int he new year! wahoo!

Get the Word Out

At Dee's Bowtique we are trying to get our name out by word of mouth! we have a facebook page and we are trying to get more people liking and following it! so head over there and "like" the page! we have giveaways going on as we hit certain numbers of followers!!

So tell everyone you know! every friday we will be giving away bows and such as well! so help us get more exposure!!!

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New Day

So we went to portland for thanksgiving!!! it was so much fun!!! it was a long 12 hour drive there and an even longer drive back due to weather!!! but it was a blast to hang out with my dad and Dr. Carole and my wonderful aunt jojo even came down to hang out!!!

Jamison would not stop going and kept giving grandpa hugs and kisses and running around his house! i dont think my dad has smiled that much for that long of a period of time!

we got up and went black friday shopping and jojo stayed home with jamison and they slept lol while we tried to battle the crowds! we got some killer deals though!!! we got josh a shop vac from home depot and it was only 28 dollars!!! and it is a awesome vac not thoughs crappy ones from walmart! it was a killer deal too! and we got some great pjs for jamison on sale and of course clothes too! so i was a specfic shopper on black friday! lol

anyways it was a great time to spend with my family and i wish desperately that either i or they lived closer!!!

but that is not the reason for my post today.

On to the good stuff, i am not really a very spiritual person, i tend to keep those thing private and yet today i feel like i need to share some feelings.

Yesterday night my dear friend came over to do visiting teaching bless her heart and told me of some extremely sad news of a good friend of ours. The friend who for privacy i will not name her was pregnant with her 4th child, they had 3 girls and were thrilled to be finally getting their little boy that they had dreamed about! we all were so extremely excited to hear the news,
well while i was gone enjoying my vacation with my family their family was experiencing a lost, see the baby had a hole in its diaphragm and so all the organs had gone into its lungs and since its lung werent developed obviously there was no saving him. they had to be induced and say goodbye to their little guy!

when i was told this news i was devestated! i seriously was heartbroken! i know the heartbreak of loosing a pregnancy since it has happened to me twice but i dont know the feeling of having to bury your child!!!

so that got me thinking, lately as some know i have been realy up and down about the whole wanting to be pregnant so bad and with every aunt flow visit it is like a stab straight in my heart and i kept thinking why why why we know i can get pregnant sheesh i have been pregnant 3 time before! and so i know it is not that, everyone keeps telling me it will happen when it is suppose to and i have been so down and like yeah freaking right whatever it is science people the lord doesnt just give people babies!

but yesterday night and i laid in bed thinking about this sweet sweet family and the hard time they are facing it made a light bulb go off in my head. i am so focus on me me me me and how i am not pregnant and everything else when it isnt about me at all!!! it is all about the lord and that baby, here i am thinking if i do this and this and this i will for sure get pregnant and it dawned on me that the lord truly does know every little soul that comes into this world and that it is according to his plan and his way and if that soul that is to come to our family isnt ready then as hard as we wish it it wont happen.

and so i hit me like a ton of bricks and i all of a sudden got a rush of warmth and my feelings of resentment and feelings of anger and sadness were lifted i know i will get pregnant again and i know we will continue our family i mean think about it it has only been 3 months since our last loss bodies need to heal! and i know we will get the perfect spirit that is meant to be in our family and maybe i dnt understand what is going on now and why i havent gotten pregnant again but i know i will understand it later!

so this morning i woke up refreshed it is a new day! no more sadness no more worries about is this the month or could i be pregnant or wishing on a star to be pregnant it is a new day to focus on my beautiful family i am blessed with and enjoy every moment i have with my son because he will never be this small again and i dont want to look back and go well if i hadnt moped around so much i wouldnt have missed out on things! so today is a a new day!!!

and to top it off my dear SIL Kellie posted this qoute on her blogged and it was totally meant for me even if she didnt know it!!

"When we put God first all things fall into place or out of our lives" ezra t. benson

it is the perfect quote that i needed this morning!

so here is to putting what matters most in front and letting everything fall into places or out of our lives!

Thankful #7 & 8

#7: we are so thankful for choices! the ability to choose and not have to do what others deem we should. we are given the choice of right and wrong and good and evil and this allows us to grow closer to our Lord and our families with each new choice we make!

#8: thankful for the evr watching adn guiding hand of the Lord in everything i do! i am so thankful to know that the Lord is always there, he is there to watch guide and comfort in times of need! he is there when we least expect it and he is there when he is most needed. i have a saying in my home that says " Christ is the center of our home, a guest at every meal and a silent listener to every conversation" i love this saying because it is so true and he has his hand in all things and it is a true blessing to know that we will never ever be alone!

thankful 5 and 6

number 5: i am so thankful for my mom's death, i know that sounds crazy and i am grateful because if she hadnt left us so early i wouldnt have to amazing relationship with my dad that i have now! her death allowed my father and i to get close and enjoy each other!! before my mom died i didnt really know my dad much and so now we are the best of friends.


number 6: i am so thankful for the gospel and it allows me peace with the fact that my mother passed away, and it allows me to know that we will be together forever and that she is in peace and with the lord. it also allows me to know that i can be with my family for ever and that my son jamison is mine forever and ever seal to me and my husband! i love this gospel and everything it does for me in my life!!! it allows me to be happy and at peace where others who dont have it are in turmoil!

Thankful thought #4

Today i am so thankful for my dad! we are so close and he is like a best friend! after my mom died he had to raise 3 kids on his own and i am so blessed that he did it so well! he has always been there for me through everything in my life whether small or large i know i can always count on my dad!

so today i am so so thankful for my dad and everything he has done for me and everything he does for my son and family now!!