Christmas 2010

This year has flown by! i swear i blinked and the year is over!!! it has been a up and down year in this household but for the most part we have had so much fun together adn enjoying each other and watching jamison turn from a baby to a little boy!!!

December 14th was josh and i's 3 year anniversary! we gave each other gifts and then we went to eat at the roof restaurant in downtown, it was goregous we were right next to the window and so we got to see the temple up close and personal with the christmas lights it is beautiful and it reminded me of hwo special it is for me to be sealed to my husband and my son forever and that we get to be together even have this mortal world it is such an undescribeable feeling and i loved the whole evening with my husband and son. we were going to get a babysitter for jamison but then we decided not to because if we are celebrating our wedding and our lives this far it wouldnt have been the same without him! maybe when there are more kids and everything we will get a babysitter but we want to enjoy all the time with just jamison for as long as we can!!!

Christmas was great this year, we went up to rexburg to see josh's family, we went to the christmas eve party adn grandma and grandpas house and had a good time eating and laughing and watching jamison interact with jake and terressa's kids he is so funny and he LOVES to dance!!! hahahaha

then christmas day we went over to grandmothers and had an AMAZING meal cooked by grandmother and it was to nice to sit and relax and chat with family and enjoy each other and jamison loves grandmother he would show her toys and when it was time to leave he gave her two loves before we could go.

So we didnt bring up presents to open there because we didnt want to haul it all there and back so we opened all of our gifts when we got home and jamison was so excited to rip the wrapping paper! it is so awesome to have him interact more this christmas!!! so he loved it! he got spoiled with cowboy boots from his aunt, a song playing doodle machine from nana carole, puzzles and money, as well as a bed set and clothes and much more!!! we all got spoiled! it was awesome!!

so now we get ready for the new year! we are getting to know friends and neighbors int he ward more and i have to say i love the ladies i am getting to know there are a handful that warm my heart and i want to do as much as i can to help them or just hang out.

other then that nothing to exciting is going on we love our life and our family and are excited for what the new year has to bring and offer and luckily we get to go through everything together!

merry christmas and a happy new year! i will write to you int he new year! wahoo!

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New Day

So we went to portland for thanksgiving!!! it was so much fun!!! it was a long 12 hour drive there and an even longer drive back due to weather!!! but it was a blast to hang out with my dad and Dr. Carole and my wonderful aunt jojo even came down to hang out!!!

Jamison would not stop going and kept giving grandpa hugs and kisses and running around his house! i dont think my dad has smiled that much for that long of a period of time!

we got up and went black friday shopping and jojo stayed home with jamison and they slept lol while we tried to battle the crowds! we got some killer deals though!!! we got josh a shop vac from home depot and it was only 28 dollars!!! and it is a awesome vac not thoughs crappy ones from walmart! it was a killer deal too! and we got some great pjs for jamison on sale and of course clothes too! so i was a specfic shopper on black friday! lol

anyways it was a great time to spend with my family and i wish desperately that either i or they lived closer!!!

but that is not the reason for my post today.

On to the good stuff, i am not really a very spiritual person, i tend to keep those thing private and yet today i feel like i need to share some feelings.

Yesterday night my dear friend came over to do visiting teaching bless her heart and told me of some extremely sad news of a good friend of ours. The friend who for privacy i will not name her was pregnant with her 4th child, they had 3 girls and were thrilled to be finally getting their little boy that they had dreamed about! we all were so extremely excited to hear the news,
well while i was gone enjoying my vacation with my family their family was experiencing a lost, see the baby had a hole in its diaphragm and so all the organs had gone into its lungs and since its lung werent developed obviously there was no saving him. they had to be induced and say goodbye to their little guy!

when i was told this news i was devestated! i seriously was heartbroken! i know the heartbreak of loosing a pregnancy since it has happened to me twice but i dont know the feeling of having to bury your child!!!

so that got me thinking, lately as some know i have been realy up and down about the whole wanting to be pregnant so bad and with every aunt flow visit it is like a stab straight in my heart and i kept thinking why why why we know i can get pregnant sheesh i have been pregnant 3 time before! and so i know it is not that, everyone keeps telling me it will happen when it is suppose to and i have been so down and like yeah freaking right whatever it is science people the lord doesnt just give people babies!

but yesterday night and i laid in bed thinking about this sweet sweet family and the hard time they are facing it made a light bulb go off in my head. i am so focus on me me me me and how i am not pregnant and everything else when it isnt about me at all!!! it is all about the lord and that baby, here i am thinking if i do this and this and this i will for sure get pregnant and it dawned on me that the lord truly does know every little soul that comes into this world and that it is according to his plan and his way and if that soul that is to come to our family isnt ready then as hard as we wish it it wont happen.

and so i hit me like a ton of bricks and i all of a sudden got a rush of warmth and my feelings of resentment and feelings of anger and sadness were lifted i know i will get pregnant again and i know we will continue our family i mean think about it it has only been 3 months since our last loss bodies need to heal! and i know we will get the perfect spirit that is meant to be in our family and maybe i dnt understand what is going on now and why i havent gotten pregnant again but i know i will understand it later!

so this morning i woke up refreshed it is a new day! no more sadness no more worries about is this the month or could i be pregnant or wishing on a star to be pregnant it is a new day to focus on my beautiful family i am blessed with and enjoy every moment i have with my son because he will never be this small again and i dont want to look back and go well if i hadnt moped around so much i wouldnt have missed out on things! so today is a a new day!!!

and to top it off my dear SIL Kellie posted this qoute on her blogged and it was totally meant for me even if she didnt know it!!

"When we put God first all things fall into place or out of our lives" ezra t. benson

it is the perfect quote that i needed this morning!

so here is to putting what matters most in front and letting everything fall into places or out of our lives!

Thankful #7 & 8

#7: we are so thankful for choices! the ability to choose and not have to do what others deem we should. we are given the choice of right and wrong and good and evil and this allows us to grow closer to our Lord and our families with each new choice we make!

#8: thankful for the evr watching adn guiding hand of the Lord in everything i do! i am so thankful to know that the Lord is always there, he is there to watch guide and comfort in times of need! he is there when we least expect it and he is there when he is most needed. i have a saying in my home that says " Christ is the center of our home, a guest at every meal and a silent listener to every conversation" i love this saying because it is so true and he has his hand in all things and it is a true blessing to know that we will never ever be alone!

thankful 5 and 6

number 5: i am so thankful for my mom's death, i know that sounds crazy and i am grateful because if she hadnt left us so early i wouldnt have to amazing relationship with my dad that i have now! her death allowed my father and i to get close and enjoy each other!! before my mom died i didnt really know my dad much and so now we are the best of friends.


number 6: i am so thankful for the gospel and it allows me peace with the fact that my mother passed away, and it allows me to know that we will be together forever and that she is in peace and with the lord. it also allows me to know that i can be with my family for ever and that my son jamison is mine forever and ever seal to me and my husband! i love this gospel and everything it does for me in my life!!! it allows me to be happy and at peace where others who dont have it are in turmoil!

Thankful thought #4

Today i am so thankful for my dad! we are so close and he is like a best friend! after my mom died he had to raise 3 kids on his own and i am so blessed that he did it so well! he has always been there for me through everything in my life whether small or large i know i can always count on my dad!

so today i am so so thankful for my dad and everything he has done for me and everything he does for my son and family now!!

Thankful Thought # 3

Today i am so thankful for a home, a roof over my head i can call mine, and all the amenties that come with that! like electricity, mickey mouse clubhouse (for jamisons sake!), running water, heat, and ac in the summer!

i am so blessed to be able to call something mine and i can do whatever i want to it! if we want to paint the walls we can and if we want to change the layout we can and everything we want we can! i am so blessed we arent rent and that our house payment is less then what it was renting!!!

i am so happy to have a husband that gives his time amd energy everyday to give me and jamison this home and amenties!

so that is my thankful today!

Thankful thought 1 & 2

First off i woulf like to thank everyone who has been such a crutch to me lately, my husband who is amazing and listens and tries to make everything that is wrong better! he is my life and i would be nothing without him! and all my friends and family that have been so supportive in my recent heartache and low times, it is amazing how true loved and blessed i feel with the smallest and kindest things that mean everything so thank you!!

i cant believe it is already november!!!! holy freaking crap!!! my boy turns 18 months this month and is now able to go into nursery and i think i am having a harder time then he is!! i get teary just thinking about it! i wish i could freeze time and just have him stay little! but he is amazing and this boy always brings a smile to my face!!!

So thankful number 1 of course is my family! i have the best husband and we have been so spoiled with our son! he is so so funny! we had josh's mom with us these past couple days and he just kept cracking all of us up!! we went to dinner one night and he was sitting next to grandma in the booth and interlocked his fingers and put his hands on teh table and sighed hahahaha liek hello i am ready for dinner! hahaha and he chats like crazy it is all he wants to do! he gives the best kisses too and he LOVES to snuggle! a boy after my own heart!!! and josh is my everything! i couldnt have asked for a better companion in this world! he is perfect for me! he knows when something is up and he knows how to spoil me! lol he is building me my craft room downstairs as we speak! spoiled much??? i think so!!!

Number 2 thankful is i am so thankful for my dad. he is an inspiration to me! he raise 3 kids on his own and i dont know how he is still sane! he has managed to become one of my best friendds and we talk all the time! the type of relationship i would have with a mom and he feels it perfectly! and he is AMAZING with my little jamison! he loves himt o death and has made more special trips out to see us now that he is here then ever!!! i love to see him with my baby cuz it is a sweet reminder of my childhood and i love it!


so those are my thankfuls! and i will continue through the month of november! thanks again to everyone who has thought of me and my family lately or said a small prayer for us they are truely felt and i am beginning to understand and be ok with what has happened and i am looking forward to what will be!

kind of having a hard day.....

i want to start off by saying i am truely blessed to have such an amazing husband who loves me despite all my flaws! and i have a AMAZING little boy who loves to call me mom and give me kisses and loves to cuddle! we have been so spoiled with him!!!

and i would also like to say that i amd so blessed to have an amazing in law family!!! my mother in law who i love to call mom because that is what she is to me and she is so sweet and caring and knows just what to say and when i need a dt pepsi! lol and the rest of josh's family is so loving and i am truely thankful to be so excepted.

now i have been having a bad day today and i need to let out my thoughts or i am going to go into a deep hole and not come out for a while and for the sanity of my husband and my son i would rather not.

i dont know if everyone knows but josh and i were pregnant, we lost it in fact we lost two seperate pregnancies within a 6 month span, the first on as in may and we lost it at 10 weeks, it was horrible i was so depressed and nothing seemed to make it better i would blame myself and say i over did everything and caused it. the miscarriage was like giving birth all over again!!! i have never felt such pain!!!

the second loss was in august at 5 weeks, this was sadly was easier emotionally because i had already done this before but it still didnt make it any better.

i thought once again what is wrong with me??? why cant i keep the baby? and then i realized that the baby isnt really mine, the baby is the lords and it is kind of on loan while down here so that it can learn and be tested to return back to him.
yes i believe our kids are ours but i believe that the lord gives them to us to watch over so the way i got through this last one is i thought maybe the baby just needed a heartbeat and that was all.

so i was trying to feel upbeat a bit about it. but the reason why i am posting is not to get all this sympathy it is because of late i have many people i know that are getting pregnant and having babies and healthly pregnancies, and i for some reason am having such a hard time with it. i am so happy for them and i couldnt be happier for them and their families! but i seem to have a little envy and question why not me? i have been wanting jamison's sibbling for a while now and so why am i not having healthy pregnancies and everything?

i know because they are having babies isnt why i am not. i know that their bliss has nothing to do with my agony but i still cant help but feel a twinge every time i see someone i know getting pregnant and my wishing desperately that it was me.

well anyways i dont think anyone really reads this it is more for my release i guess but for those people who suffered through this post thanks for listening!

September in a nutshell!

So september came and went faster then i thought it could!! we had so much going on and had a blast every minute of it!

So first things first, where the heck did my baby go? i have a little boy now a toddler he doesnt have baby chunk anymore he is like a little man it is sad!

ok onward! So we decided on monday that it was time to take jamison to Chuck E Cheeses for the first time! and he had a blast!! he was running around playing with every game and it is finally a place where i can let him do that!!! and they have this cool stamp and you can only see under ultraviolet lights and so all three of use have the same stamp and to leave we have to show the door person the stamps it is a nice reminder that not just any creep can come in and take your baby!

Next we found a rocking jumping horse at a garage sale for 3 dollars and jamison just loves it!!! he rides it like crazy!! everytime he gets playng he runs straight for the horse! lol

next we went on our first family vacation! we went to the grand canyon and then down to lake havasu to visit my aunt judy!!! We went camping for the first time as we headed down to the grand canyon and it was so fun! and it was beautiful to have the canyons in the background! the grand canyon was breathtaking and poor jamison was asleep for all of it!!! lol but he did wake up to get a picture in front of the grand canyon sign!! and then we headed down to lake havasu to hang out with my aunt judy who hasnt seen jamison is about a year! so as we drove into lake havasu it went from 83 degrees to 112!!!! i couldnt believe it and told josh to grab a picture of it! and it was HOT HOT HOT the whoel time we were there! so what do you do when it is hot? we went to the lake of course!!! and we played on sea doos for two days straight! oh my gosh they were so fun!! josh and i were jumping them on wakes and we were seeing how fast we could go and i got mine up to 62 mph it is so fun you feel liek you are flying across the water not even touching it!!!

Jamison had so much fun on the shore! we brought him sand toys and he played like crazy and was running in and out of the water! luckily judy loves jamison and would watch him while we went playing on the sea doos! sadly i forgot my camera so i dont have pictures of being at the lake!

We also went to this old mining town call oatman and it is in the middle of BFE but it is a cool little town they have burrows running around the town free and they will come right up to you and everything! we have a bunch of pictures of them with jamison they loved him! probably cuz he smelled like food! lol they even tried to eat jamisons cowboy hat! lol

we had lunch in oatman at this restaurant that had dollar bills EVERYWHERE!!! they were on the ceiling and they were all over the walls! you signed your dollar bill and would hang it on the wall! it was so cool! but the service was HORRIBLE! but that is ok it was so fun!

sadly we had to come home but before we left we went to the london bridge, the actually had the london bridge disassembled and each brick had a number on them and the reassembled it here in lake havasu so we went down to see it and take a picture at the fountain.

on the way home we stopped for a night in vegas and we stayed t circus circus so jamison could play some arcade games and also win prizes so that was fun! nd josh won us money to pay for our dinner so that was great too! he is a smart black jack player!

so that is about it for september! i cant believe it is already october! and in like 6 weeks we get to go home to portland and see my dad!!! i cant wait!!!

August Happenings

So we have had a lot of fun this august in our home! we have had so much fun playing around the house and just being a family!

Jamison is a character!!! he has so much spunk and loves to be busy!! i can never get this boyt o calm down unless it is time to go to sleep and he LOVES to sleep!!

Jamison has finally graduated to his toddler bed and he loves it!!! he gets to come into our room in the morning and wake us up and it is truely the best way to be woken up in the morning!

He also wants to help out around the house LOT liek he loves the mop it is the best thing in the world to him! he would rather play with the mop then any of his toys! lol it is so cute though!

and he wants to be a big boy and sit in his big boy chair and i think it is so cute when i say you want to go bye bye he goes and gets into his chair for me to put on his shoes! he is getting so smart!!!

this month has been eventful! jamison had a double ear infection that we had no idea about until he had a 104.5 fever and we went to ER and they told us about it! he didnt tug on his ears or anything he was so good i cant believe how tough our little guy is!!!

we went into Cal Ranch near our home and jamison had a BLAST!!! he loved all the tractor toys and the riding horse! i wish we could have bought the horse for him but it was way way too much money! at the end of the post is the video of him playing on the horse! it is hilarious!

Jamison is a talker now too!!! he loves to say yes and no and oooooooh like when he wants what you are eating he will come up to you and say ooooooooooh till you give him some and then he says mmmmmmmh lol it is so cute! and he jabbers like carzy i dont understand a single word but he will mak esure you are pay attention to what he is saying!

my dad and sister are coming into town this weekend and then the next weekend i am going to brigham city to sell my bows in the peach days festival!! so i have been working around the clock to make a bunch of bows! and then 2 weeks later we are going to the grand canyon and lake havasu to visit my aunt judy who hasnt seen jamison in a year!!! so we are so excited!
so september is going to be CRAZY busy but that is how we like it!!

October will be more low key and then traveling again for the holidays! so it is exciting and fun to get the holidays off and going!!!

Win a FREE Bow!!!!

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